hi everyone, i'm back. so... i got 2.39, which is really bad, i wasn't admitted to poly (what's new haha) and now i'm pretty much 1. broke, 2. unemployed, 3. aimless. nah. i figured out that i want to go to nafa, diploma in art (teaching) but it's a asdfghjkl $6000 per year. for 4 years. 3 years in nafa and another year in NIE. fucking hell i'll be 24 by then cause i didn't apply for it this year. so i have to apply it next year and next year i'll be 20. i can draw but... i can't shade for nuts! and after completion of my studies, i'll be deployed to teach art programmes in secondary schools. SHIT. i'm pretty much quaking in my boots now.

firstly, how the hell am i suppose to come up with $24000!? even if i'm gonna spend this one free year i have to working and saving money, i'll only be able to cough out about $6000. original course fee $6600. with tuition grant it's $6000. secondly, 4 years is abit too long. especially if i'm only going to start working when i'm 24. as in working professionally. thirdly, i would like to teach. but art? especially when i can't shade? hmm. not a good idea, no?

the thing is, my mum wants me to go nafa. she said i don't have to go to poly, go to nafa instead cause i can draw. yeah but, have you seen others who can really really freaking draw?! compared to mine, mine's like a beginner. god argh. i thought of taking a part time diploma, but none specialise in art teaching. or in art, for that matter.

sigh, someone help me please? : (